Whilst sitting in the Amphitheater

Whilst sitting in the amphitheater a few thoughts crossed through my mind. During my german class today, which overall is one of the worst class experiences I have had since being in college, we were discussing environmental issues as best we could as a class in German. One of the guys in the class which just so happens to be an extremely flamboyant gay ultra conservative republican asked the question,"Well what if we don't care about the environment at all? How do we say that in German?" To which the teacher replied with a frown," "Das ist mir die Umwelt egal"....(I think).... This is not the first time I have heard someone say this, but it is the first time I have heard someone say this in college. This is disturbing to me. I can't understand how someone could honestly say they don't give a shit about the environment at all. It is people like this that make the world a shittier place. They go about there lives half assing everything and never stop to think that we all have some responsibility for the future of our planet. I do not by any stretch think that everyone can become an environmentalist, but it would be nice to believe that everyone could find it inside themselves to care about the world they are a part of. If there is any other form of intelligent life out there in the vast sea of space they will likely never stop by our planet to share their developments with us, nor even bother to stop by to destroy us because at this rate of popular opinion thinking global warming is a joke we will likely kill ourselves so why waste the laser beams and space gas on a dying planet with an arrogant, blood thirsty , greedy, populace. We as humans have created so many great things. Why should we waste our future potential away for the pursuit of the dollar. Is money what drives the world? Yes... but people can be happy with less money. There are actually studies out there that prove this. People with money just over the poverty level tend to be similarly happy to those that are in the top 2% of high wealth. For the gay business major in my german class I say this, "How would you like it if while you were with your male partner someone came by and smeared feces all over your face, scrubbed you up and down with coal, exposed you to nuclear waste, threw a bunch of half eaten food at you, pissed in your hair, and then proceeded to rape you?" Would you cry out for help? What if a bunch of straight people walked by and saw you crying for help and they didn't stop saying they didn't give a shit about some gay guy getting randomly shat on...? Just a thought....To clarify if this seemed negative towards homosexuals I apologize. The example used just as easily could have been straight or bi, but in this case he was gay. For the most part I believe the gay community tends to lean towards being environmentally friendly, but not this chap. If it makes you feel better I dislike other people of all races, gender, and sexual orientation that share this fellows opinion on the environment. .....

Chat Roulette

What does chat roulette teach me. For starters the obvious, for some reason a large number of guys are able to jerk off to a gray connection screen that is followed by quick blips of other guys jerking it, fully clothed males staring intently into their web cams, and occasionally girls. Secondly, it teaches me that for some reason it is an entertaining game to see how long i can last on the website before I see someone stroking their pork sword. Thirdly, it teaches me that a vast number of people, primarily males do not see enough breasts or vaginas in their life. It never fails every time I get on there is at least one connection with someone merely holding a cleverly devised sign that tends to read something like "Tits?". I guess the day had to come when internet porn no longer would do the trick for these guys. The new wave of porn films will have to include elements of chat roulette in some way. There will be a growing demand for grey connection screens, dudes beating off, guys staring intently into the camera, and the occasional girl.

Rain

I miss the days when rain didn't use to bother me. I have fond childhood memories of running through thick streams of rain with not a care in the world. I can remember jumping in puddles and loving every splash and ripple. I can remember hunting for salamanders and turtles in the muck and grime that filled the small creak near my house after a solid rain. I can remember the joy I received from being covered in mud and water when I returned home to my angry mother. I can remember how much more epic the battles between my Cobra Commander and Duke GI-Joes were in the rain. I can remember the funny noises my wet socks made as they squished between my toes in my rain boots. Now I feel the need to cover myself up completely when rain comes. I cloak myself in a hood or umbrella to shelter myself from the wetness I used to embrace with open arms. I hide from what once used to be a source of my joy. Smiles emitted from rains long ago now turn into frowns as the cold water covers my clothes and hair on the way to class. When and why did rain become a source of my unhappiness?

Sex and Fat People

Sex is an interesting topic. Some people want to place it on a pedestal, some want it like rabbits, some think it is something that must wait until marriage, some think that it is better when involving chains, bondage, and other odd toys, some like it rough, some like it soft, some hate it, some like it in different holes, some are afraid to talk about it, some hide from it, some bask in it, and so on and so forth. Sex in my opinion is a splendid occurrence, or at least most of the time it is. There are times when people make the mistake of sharing this sex thing with the wrong person. Sometimes it is hard to say no even when your mind is telling you repeatedly not too. Most people tend to make too much of a big deal out of sex and the things leading up to it. They go into it for the wrong reasons and then expect it to still be held up high as if virginity is godliness. I once knew someone who I will merely deem as naive person #1. They built up this grand image of a loving relationship with a long future full of commitments within a matter of weeks of knowing someone. This is extremely unhealthy and is one of the reasons we have so many people bitching about their problems with life, love, and happiness. To some extent I cannot blame the person because it is human nature to want to be loved and nurtured, but this should not be exposed until there is a mutual grounding for such things between both parties. A lot of people make this deadly mistake and they end up hating the other person for it when they should actually turn the hate back on themselves. Everyone makes choices for their own personal benefit and occasionally for others, but no one ever wants to take the responsibilities that come from making choices. Everyone wants to blame the other party for making their life hell when in all actuality their life is hell because they so choose it to be. You can always stop yourself from being somewhere you don't want to be, well at least for the most part. There are always scenarios that can trump this like war, rape, murder, etc., but disregarding those a choice is made. When sex is done with the right person it can be one of the most rewarding experiences out there. I don't think many people ever get to understand this form of sex. I always here about people complaining about sex. Whether it be because it wasn't with the right person or because it sucked sex seems to be an issue with many people. Perhaps a lot of the worlds problems could be solved if people had more frequent better sex.

People are always afraid to address the ugliness in their life mostly because in America we are cultured not to unless it is through some whiney form of complaining to others that gets people no where. Complaining and gossip are the lowest forms of communication. They serve no good purpose that I can think of.

Fat people hate it when they are told to be healthy. For example just the other day I was watching an episode of the Tyra Banks show....(shut up you would not change the channel if you heard the words"these women have two vaginas")...and on this show Tyra had many overweight women on her show and she juxtaposed them with women that were in shape that were disgusted by fat people. The show was sympathetic to the fat people. Many people in the audience got up and told the severely overweight women how beautiful they were and how they were normal and that the fit women were just shallow bitches for addressing their weight issues. Many of the "fit" women were concerned relatives and friends that were trying to talk their fat friends into excersizing and eating right for their health, but they were the bitches because they used harsh words to motivate the fat women. This is a big problem, or at least I feel that it is because we are culturing a society that encourages that everyone is beautiful. This is not true, and this does not only apply to body weight. You see the same things with flattery used with unintelligent people and many other things. It's just not right. Actually it's just a big fat pile of steaming bull shit. This world is encouraging people to bitch about themselves and their flaws while doing nothing to improve themselves or society, but the world is discouraging outside aide with peoples flaws. This is not good.

Pointless

I do not even pretend to give myself the faintest belief that a single person cares what I am posting in this blog. I think that leads down a long road of vanity that is a problem with many bloggers and writers alike today. Everyone has a false sense that people out there must care that they indulged with the chocolate frosting and whipped cream at starbucks today, or that they are bored of the class or job they are in right now. Twitter has become a hub for this because blogs could only contain the smugness for so long, and because twitter offers a much smaller pallet for writing in, which essentially amounts to nothing more than status updates. Why does anyone care that Susan is at the dentist thinking about her boyfriend or that Tim is at the movies with his friends? It is hard to say. Overall we all fall for this trap of vanity. Deep down we all want to believe that we are more clever than the next person, but in reality there is always a much more clever person. We also like to peer into other peoples lives at an unhealthy rate. It has become human nature to be nosy, and that is sad. Society could be so much more if people decided to only focus on their lives as a means to better society as a whole, but this is an unobtainable dream. We have become addicts to gossip.I wish facebook didn't cater to this, but it is to be expected when you give people the opportunity to upload thousands of pictures they take of themselves in a variety of angles and give them a medium to write their personality into a handful of paragraphs. I'm not saying I've never fallen for this trap, but I am saying that it annoys the hell out of me to see people pester their "so called" friends and the rest of the world with their vain complaints about weight, intellect, and other things of that nature.(so called refers to the ridiculous concept that people believe that everyone they are friends with on social networking sites are actually their friends and care about what they are thinking or feel. This is highly unlikely, and it is more likely that only 40-60% of people on said friends lists care about you.) To sum up the only purpose for this blog is for my own "vain" if you will purposes. I merely want to keep myself writing daily to stay in shape.

Relaxation....

If you ever find yourself on a beach or even in a field of tall grass with a cool breeze tickling your face.....Slip these albums into your ears via some headphones..

http://www.amazon.com/Little-Joy/dp/B001G53K4G/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1270578446&sr=8-1

http://www.amazon.com/Brightblack-Morning-Light/dp/B000FFOZYM/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1270578484&sr=1-1

http://www.amazon.com/White-Water-Bloom-Sea-Wolf/dp/B002IYJL8S/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1270578509&sr=1-1

Songs that won't leave my head

Every once in a while a song enters my ears, floods my brain with utter delight, and never seems to want to leave. I am going to compile a list of these songs for the purpose of compiling a list. Lists can be fun especially when they entail songs because maybe just maybe one of these days I'll make a playlist of these songs and have an entire CD of songs that will get stuck in my head.

1. In Transit-Albert Hammond Jr.

2. Nothing Ever Happened-Deerhunter

3. Too Young-Phoenix

4. The Ballad of Raa- The Rural Alberta Advantage

5. 10 A.M. Automatic- The Black Keys

6. One Big Holiday- My Morning Jacket

7. The High Road- Broken Bells

8. Crown of Love- Arcade Fire

9. Dominos- The Big Pink

10. Heart Sweats- Japandroids

11.So Well- Benji Hughes

12. Four Winds-Bright Eyes

13. Hold Tight-Dave, Dee, Dozy, Beaky, Mitch, and Titch

14. Politicians in My Eyes-Death

15. In Ear Park-Department of Eagles

16. Two Weeks-Grizzly Bear

17. Feel the Pain-Dinosaur Jr.

18. Kingdom of Rust-Doves

19. Shampoo-Elvis Perkins

20. Grim Reaper Blues- Entrance

21. Something in Common- Free Energy

22. Hands of Time- Groove Armada

23. Talk to Me, Dance with Me- Hot Hot Heat

24. Wide Eyes- The Local Natives

25. Impossible Germany- Wilco

26. Finding Out True Love is Blind- Louis XIV

27. Kim and Jessie- M83

28. Congratulations- MGMT

29.I'll Take Us Home- Matt and Kim

30.Excuses- The Morning Benders

Too much already.....